Ok, so work is shit lately. I've got a new boss. He's an idiot, treats everyone like shit, and can just burn in you know where. SO I've come to a conclusion I'm finding a new job...soon...very soon.

In better news, Christmas this year was absolutely amazing.
My mom got me an Ipod Touch, I was so stoked! lol I can't put it down! I got some other random neat stuff, but the thing that comes in second place next to that is what my grandma got me.

Two, count them, TWO hand drawn, and colored pictures of Heath Ledger's Joker. These are just simply amazing and make my mouth drop. The guy she went to, to get them, let her watch him draw one of them. She was astonished, and these are just simply priceless. I almost cried when I unwrapped them. I really do appreciate my family, and I got them awesome gifts in return. Hope everyone had an AWESOME Christmas and Happy Holidays!

Ok, so it was this day today, that I was hired in at Sonic. Today I got a pin for my one year Anniversary with being with Trigo Hospitality. I've acheived so much in one year, and for being my first job. I mean seriously for my first job every and less than a year, I became a manager. Woot.

Anyway on another completely random note. My friend Ashley F. and I have started something amazing. You know everone says "lol" as lawl outloud and stuff, well we took it the next leve, cause we are dorks. "Rofl" is officially Rafffl, and "lmao" is Lammoowww. If you put them together its Rafflaamowwww, wow, yeah we were bored.

So, on another note, I went on a date yesterday, it didnt go so well.

Peace

You know, I'm an idiot.

I've finally grown up. Do you know what its like to lose a friendship? I do.

You don't know what you have until its gone, is actually a very powerful and true saying. I've lost a friend and a lover. Not in the likes of death, just relationship wise. I lost this person months ago, and its now that I realize what an idiot I am.

I thought at one point in time that I loved them, like loved them loved them. They loved me back. But I chose someone else over them, cause I was an idiot. So I lost their friendship in time. I begged and pleaded to have it back, once I realized my mistake. But once you hurt a person (or think you do) so bad, they just dont want you back, not even as friends.

I'm sorry for the mistakes I have made. I chose wrong and I admit my faults. To have this persons friendship back alone would make me the single handedly most happy person in the world. That's what I found out they truly mean to mean, the world.

My love for them was just in turn appreciation and admiration. If I can phsically and emotionally love them, that would be awesome. But that's not what I care about, I just want their friendship, that alone would suffice. I would be grateful to even get a reply from them.

I'm just hoping they can truly forgive me, I've grown up and changed for the better. Hopefully they'll see that. I do deeply apologize for the way I acted in the past, but hopefully you'll see that three quarters of a year in learning, and changing, growing, and loving can change a person.

I admit my faults, and hope that our friendship can rekindle. Cause I can honestly say, it hurts to not have it.

Call me what you will, say what you will. Please just hear me out. I'm grateful to you, and I want you to know that. I actually owe it too you, to have made me go through the process of change that I needed.

All I want you to remember is "Everything". [link]

I feel better, a burdens been lifted off me with this journal entry

This is for you :iconashr7plz: [link]